Assignment #13

Three things about myself and why I am the way I am?  How do I relate to people opposite from me?

        I tend to look for the bad in things that I do except the positive.  When I was being raised there was a  lot of animosity around and people were not very optimistic.  there fore I picked up this habit. 
        For people who are optimistic I don't think I have problems with them, I actually wish I could be more like them.  I also feel the for people who are more optimistic then have a greater relationship with the Lord and trust him more.  I find myself having to remind myself to hand things over to the Lord.


       I find it easy to kick people out of my life because I cant forgive easily.  Forgiveness is one of my greatest challenges I face everyday.  When people upset me I get so full of anger that I just want to leave.  This also come with how I was raised.  Someone near and dear to my heart holds on to things that happened over twenty years ago and even through they cant change it they still go on and on about it.  My family has also kicked other members out of for a period of time because they didn't like the choices they made and I believe those were justified both times because people cheated on their wives and husbands and had children involved.  This defiantly come from both sides of the family. 
        I want to work on this and when I see people get wronged and then not care just shocks me but I find myself mad with a person who hadn't even wronged me.  I envy people who can forgive.  


       I am very good with seeing something that needs to be done and getting it done without being told.  I was raised on  a farm and we raised animals from young ages so we had responsibilities  every day.  I am so happy I was raised this way because I see people who have to be told when to do something and it is just very frustrating.  Being a farm kid makes me very proud because I think people think I may know what I'm doing more of the time then others.  I tend to grasp ideas faster because to me its just logical. 
       When dealing with people who are opposite of me in this aspect is one of the most frustrating to me to deal with.  Quite honestly I dont know how to work with them without becoming upset so I can't answer this one. 

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